Mama Drama

 

Do you ever just MISS your babies?  I mean like really miss them when you have to be away from them for, like, one whole day? In my case, I miss her Monday thru Friday (8:00 to 4:45).  Being a working mom is tougher than most people think.  It’s not only that it takes a lot of energy, (getting up, getting myself ready, getting baby girl ready, taking her to daycare, and taking myself to work).  There's the drive time, (my daycare is about 15 minutes away, only because Miss Linda is totally worth the extra drive), but by the time I get off work, go pick her up, and get home it’s already dinner time, bath time, and not much left for play time before bed.  Not to mention if I want to go to the gym after work (which is why I loved going in the morning’s when Ryan was in town), that takes away 90% of the night or if we have anything else going on after work - our night is shot!  It is really hard to only have that 3-4 hours a night with her.  Lately with Ryan being away, it’s really been weighing on me heavier. It gets really lonely without him at home, and being able to spend time with our baby girl is so comforting.  She is my family; a part of both of us.  I got to stay home with her an extra day this week because she wasn’t feeling good, so that always makes it so much harder to have to bring her to daycare and be away from her all day again.   

 

The one thing that I can honestly say I regret, is not quitting my job after I had her and becoming a stay at home mom.  I do like my job, and I don’t want to be someone who solely relies on my husband’s income (granted he does work very, very hard for our family), but I’ve always wanted to also have a paycheck for those times when I just need some retail therapy (even if they are few and far between, my husband would agree, right??).   I really thought bringing her to daycare would get easier after a while, that I would get used to it. But the truth is, I haven’t.  And with all the growing and new things she’s learning to do this past year – I feel it’s getting harder and harder to be away from her all day.  Don’t get me wrong, a break here and there is nice, especially when she’s being a little monster and I just need a minute to breathe, BUT I wish it wasn’t an 8 hour a day break from my baby. 

Becoming a mother is such a phenomenal experience.  I can whole heartedly say there is no other experience quite like it.  There's no better feeling of accomplishment than hearing or watching your child say or do something that you’ve taught her, it’s a whole new world.  Ryan and I have decided that with our next baby, I will get to stay home.  We’ll be more prepared as far as our savings account goes and emotionally, I know I will be so much happier to be able to watch them grow up together, at different stages, and get to see them interact together, at least until Rylee goes into kindergarten (which will be equally heartbreaking, LOL). 

I will definitely miss my job, (maybe) – just kidding!  I will miss it,  when the time does come to add to our family, but at the same time there is no job in this world that is more important to me than raising our kids;  which to me, is the greatest, most fulfilling accomplishment of my life.

 

 

'Til next time.. Here's our beautiful baby girl the day she was born!  Thanks for reading & enjoy your hump day! 

 

~Jess